I quit

Everything, I'm done, I can't take this anymore. I'm so stupid. I just don't even want to care anymore. I can't even cry which is like the worst feeling ever. I hardly have enough energy to pick myself up. Everything is a lie to me, but I guess I had it coming. It's pretty clear to me that there is no hope for me in this life nor any life. I don't know what to do anymore like seriously I'm having panic attacks because I'm so lost. I hate dreaming only because it isn't real. Every morning is the same. I wake up from a dream with my hopes high and then think "nevermind, I screwed up, life isn't good anymore" . I can't even imagine anymore because I know how unrealistic it is and hurts too much to think about it. I'm scared to go to sleep now because I know who awaits in my dreams and I know that she won't be the same way when I awaken.