It was all suddenly clear. She acted the way she did not because she was evil but because she was only human. At that moment I realized how much credit needed to be given to her. For she is stronger than I could ever dream of being. And that I'm glad she feels the way she does because I'm no good for her. All this time I was thinking that what I did to her was nothing compared to all the pain she put me through when in reality, I hurt her beyond what I can interpret. Not everything is a lie and trust still exists.

About that last post, I was talking about a so called "friend" kept constantly asking what was bothering me, when there was nothing bothering me at all. It just gets old, because he also in the past called me obsessive and I need to quit being kicked around by him. Hypocrite...other than that my vacation is okay. I watched "The Godfather" on easter. I think I'll watch the second one later. My head is killing me, I think its the redbull, but that stuff is too good to give up. I wish the rain would stop. I need money!!! More on my life later until next time I'm exhausted.